So yesterday we had our final Doctors appointment now that all our tests are complete, and so that we can finally be referred to a fertility specialist.
My final results were:
Chlamydia test: Negative, Routine Swab: Normal, Hemoglobin blood test: Fine,
2 x 21 Day Progesterone tests: 15 and 8 which is not ideal, to ovulate you should have a minimum level of 30 so the doctor suggested that even though I am having period I may not be actually releasing an egg.
Anyway we spoke about specialists in the local area and who she knew better than others, and our referral was sent! Woohoo! We are so relieved as finally things can start happening for us!
The rest of the tests begin.
I had my transvaginal ultrasound scan and typical me being a stress head; while I was putting my trousers back on, I peered over the shoulder of the nurse as she wrote up the report to send to my doctor and read words ‘ovary of an increased volume 15.7.’ I then asked her if she could tell me anything and she says she needs to ‘consider how she words the report and then it is up to my doctor to interpret the findings!’ OMG I am now going crazy with Google again and have self-diagnosed myself with ovarian cancer, I can’t think about anything else and now therefore I will never be having children arghhhh!
The next day I book a phone consultation with my doctor and I am told that it looks like my right ovary is polycystic. Ok so relief does flood over me to hear that they don’t suspect that I have ovarian cancer, however now another spanner has been thrown in to our fertility works. What does this mean for our chances? What does this mean for our fertility options?Previous doctors have spoken about trying IUI first before IVF, can we still do that is I have a PCO?
Great so not only is my husband’s sperm swimming around in circles, my right ovary is a monster! Arghhh why is nothing ever easy for us when it come to our health! For the past few years we have been through Hubbie being seriously ill in hospital with tuberculosis resulting in not only 6 months of treatment but also a perforated ear drum that needed to be rebuilt with a skin graft, and giving myself latent TB resulting in 3 months of treatment, as well as monthly bouts of tonsillitis that significantly impacted our lives because we could never plan anything due to him feeling too ill!
Well on a positive note as my mum put it ‘At least the problem is with both of you now and not just one!’ yeah thanks for that mum, but I guess that the burden of having a fertility problem is not solely weighing down on just one of us, but shared.
My friend has been through the toughest pregnancy I have ever known, she has been in and out of hospital with bleeding, gestational diabetes and a liver disorder that affects 1% of pregnancies. However she is now a proud mummy to an absolutely gorgeous baby, we went round to have a cuddle and I was so proud of her and how naturally she has taken to motherhood. I didn’t feel jealous at all which is what I expected to feel, I just felt lucky to have friends in my life to share their motherhood experiences with.
Anyway now Christmas is over, its back to the doctors we go, let’s get this show back on the road.
Hubbie motility results are: 1st test:15% and 2nd test: 6%. There is no longer tonsillitis and antibiotics to hide behind anymore, we are disappointed :(.
Although we both appear laid back, I am the stress head in the relationship, and one of the reasons why I love Hubbie so much is that he is so patient with me and always knows how to calm me down and force me to be rational. My river of tears has burst the banks, and I have found myself inconsolable on a regular basis. I will go upstairs to change the sheets, or put the washing away and before I knew it I find myself curled up in a ball booing away in to my pillow. Or I will be on the phone to my mum and she will say something along the lines of ‘me and your father can’t wait for you to have children too,’ and as soon I hang up, Hubbie again would have to deal with the red blotchy faced, blood shot eyed, crying mess of a wife again, poor guy.
I have booked reflexology for next month with someone to specialises in fertility, if nothing else, hopefully she will provide me with an hour of relaxation bliss.
Our first result is in and the news isn’t great, Hubbie’s sperm motility is at 13%.
Although this jolted our confidence and I have come home crying in to Hubbie’s arms, he has been ill recently and therefore this is only so poor because he has been on antibiotics, surely this isn’t a true result! He is having his tonsils out in a couple of weeks, let’s get that done, relax and enjoy Christmas and re-test in Jan when it will all be fine!